Christmas 2005
It is always sad to reach the end of a year, especially when we reach the autumn of our years. Christmas is the time of a year when we look back and remember other Christmases that we spent with loved ones who are no longer with us. It is so easy to close our eyes and see their faces and expressions as we sat around the Christmas tree long, long ago, exchanging gifts, laughing, having a good time, having a wonderful life.
Around 11 p.m. on Christmas Eve, we would put on our heavy coats and walk the two and a half blocks to our church, arriving early enough to get good seats for Midnight Mass. We smiled as friends and neighbors arrived. A few minutes before Midnight, the choir began singing Christmas carols. Midnight Mass was always a very special occasion.
Last year, I returned to Chicago and to my boyhood parish, St. Leonard's in Berwyn. It was the first time in almost 20 years. The purpose was the 50th Reunion of my eight grade class, the Class of 1954. Two-thirds of our class were there! It felt terrific to see everyone again. Our church, built in 1950, still looked brand new to me, even though it is more than 50 years old. And I saw a few familiar faces belonging to parishioners who never moved away.
Sitting in the pew during Mass, I thought back to all of the times I had attended Mass at St. Leonard's when I was a boy. In the summers, we often attended 6 a.m. Mass before we headed to one of the lakes in northern Illinois or southern Wisconsin for a day of swimming, softball, cooking hamburgers and hot dogs, taking a nap. Talk about the endless days of summer!
When I was a boy, Christmas always meant something new for my Lionel train layout. Years later, and long after my father had died, I spent Thanksgiving with his brother. Roy, and his family. During dinner, my cousin, Sharon, asked me a question that at first threw me for a loop: "George, whatever happened to all of your Dad's Lionel trains?"
"My Dad's Lionel trains!" I exclaimed. "Those were my Lionel trains!"
Everyone laughed. Everyone but me knew that they were my Dad's Lionel trains. Sure, we shared them, and both of us spent many pleasant evenings and weekends working on the railroad. But when Sharon asked about my Dad's Lionel trains, I finally realized that he had bought them as much for himself as for me.
And that's perfectly alright, because that's the it was supposed to be, a father-son hobby that gave both of us so much pleasure.
My/our Lionel trails are carefully packed away now. I don't take them out at Christmas anymore because my apartment is so small. Maybe someday....
But I better not wait to much longer.














